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Friendships and Healing

Monday evening was the annual Women's Holiday Dinner at my church. I'll be honest, I was a little reluctant to go. I love my church and the women there, but I also struggle with women's events in general. And I feel like I struggle to connect with women at church. I know a BIG part of it is me -- I'm not always super vulnerable (I love talking with people, but I keep it a surface level) and I hate getting emotional (although, I swear I always end up crying and talking more than anyone :) ). I would rather hang out with guys and talk sports than hang out with a bunch of women. I've struggled to make strong friendships with women and many of the friendships I have developed over the years have fallen away through moves and distance. 

I mentioned recently how God has brought amazing change in my life through the relationships with my neighbors. It's funny, I often feel more connected to my neighbors who take me as I am. They actually want to spend time with me. I am real with them and they enjoy/accept me. I look forward to spending time with these women and hanging out with them...and it has nothing to do with sports! We just laugh and have fun and be


I love these women and their relationships have been incredible healing for me...although I am a little more sleep deprived from the late nights. ;) During this month of Thanksgiving, I am incredibly thankful for every single women that I have had the chance to spend time with this year.

I had a wonderful time at the Women's Dinner. I enjoyed my time and sat next to one of the ladies from my Bible Study small group. I thoroughly enjoyed talking with Becky and hanging out with her. The evening came to an abrupt end for me (another story I will post later), but I had a wonderful time. Oh, and I won a gift certificate to Naperville Running Company. Woohoo!

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