This past Saturday Walter took me to the Faith Hill/Tim McGraw Soul 2 Soul tour. It was wonderful. I really enjoyed the concert and even Walter liked it! The show was fantastic (and romantic) and I'm glad that I got the opportunity to go. Walter was going to surprise me, but I found out accidently a few days earlier. Whoops!
I've come to the revelation that I don't love people (other than my family, which I love fiercely). I'm not trying to be funny and I'm not being mean. I care for people and I genuinely show love and care, but deep down in my sinful, deprived soul, I don't truly love people. Let me explain... I've been hurt a lot by friendships. Numerous times I have let my guard down and tried to be real, just to have those people walk away from me for no reason. So I've put up walls and guarded my heart. I'll share only what is safe, but I struggle to be vulnerable and real. Years ago I went to counseling to help me with being more vulnerable (and my perfectionist nature). I grew a lot and after about a year, I connected with my future husband and allowed my walls to come down. I praise the Lord for him and allowing me to be real. My husband is a gift from God, but I still struggle with my female friendships. Guy friendships always seem to be easier to me. Maybe it ...
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Love,
Manda
Saw your Snapfish pics...I like how in the last picture the player's jersey says "I love Dana." The Cubs really know how to keep their fans loyal!!
Hee hee.
Love, M