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Changing for Good

Well, it has been a while since I have written anything and a lot of things have happened. First of all, I have joined a Bible Study. I have been looking for a study with people my own age and in the same place in life for a long time. God has blessed me with such a group and I love it. I was accepted immediately.

Secondly, two days ago I resigned from my job at The Little Gym. I have been there over a year and it is time for me to move on. I have been looking for a long time, so I was incredibly happy to give my notice. I will continue to work there until Thanksgiving. I will tell you more details in the future.

God has really been working in my life and changing it in so many ways. It has been a long process, but he has remained faithful. My last two job searches have taken me nine months -- interesting... God has been growing and developing me for where he desires to take me next and preparing me for the future. It isn't always easy, but God is good. Here is a poem that really spoke to me the past months:

"Pressed Out of Measure" by Annie Johnson Flint

Pressed out of measure and pressed to all length;
Pressed so intensely it seems beyond strength.

Pressed in the body and pressed in the soul;
Pressed in the mind till the dark surges roll;

Pressure by foes, and pressure by friends;
Pressure on pressure, till life nearly ends.

Pressed into loving the staff and the rod;
Pressed into knowing no helper but God.

Pressed into liberty where nothing clings;
Pressed into faith for impossible things.

Pressed into living a life in the Lord;
Pressed into living the Christ-life outpoured.

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